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Fear and Pink Buffaloes

04 Nov

buffaloesI usually have a pretty good handle on my fears. When they crop up, I try very hard to take those thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ. My what-ifs turn to prayers, sometimes as simple as, “Jesus, no.” Other times, when the fearful thoughts assault me and won’t go away, I recite scripture, reminding myself of truth. And God calms my heart. It works every time.

When I’m awake.

But those fears crop up when I’m sleeping, and they come out in the weirdest ways.

For example, the other night, I dreamed I was driving through a prairie with my three teenagers in the car. The prairie was filled with cows and horses and birds and all sorts of other animals—sort of like you’d picture the African Savannah, but in Oklahoma. I felt pretty secure in my car. Then we came upon a pack of buffaloes in the middle of the road.

I had to stop, of course. Even dream-Robin isn’t dumb enough to drive into a pack of thousand-pound animals.

So we stopped, and then, out of nowhere, one of them climbed in my open window. It was a baby. I knew this because it was smaller than the others. And of course, it was pink.

(When I told my husband about the dream the next morning, I explained that it wasn’t bright pink. It was more a brownish pink.

“Like a hot dog?” he asked.

“No. More like its fur was brown on the inside, but had a pinkish tone on the ends.”

“So it was a buffalo with frosted tips?”

I don’t think he was taking my dream seriously.)

So there I was, pinned to my seat with a buffalo on my lap, and I was screaming for the kids to help me. But they didn’t help at all. I didn’t see what they were doing (I was busy with the buffalo, obviously), but I imagine they were taking video on their phones to text their friends. Then the buffalo started biting my fingers. (That might have had more to do with my arthritis, but that’s a story for another blog.) I finally managed to shove the buffalo out of the car, but more were coming in the other windows.

My kids were oblivious.

I was still trying to get the windows closed when I woke up.

Okay, I admit, it sounds kind of silly in retrospect, but imagine how you’d feel with a buffalo on your lap, snacking on your fingers.

After I washed my hands to get off the imaginary slobber, I analyzed the dream. The worst part was my three teenagers in the car, watching me fight but not helping. And the fact that my husband wasn’t there. I felt like I was trying to protect my kids from all the evils in the world, and I was alone. It felt so real, and the feelings I felt were so authentic. Me against the world. And I was losing.

But the dream was a lie. Yes, I am trying to protect my kids from evil. And yes, sometimes it feels like the evils are closing in like the buffaloes in my dream. But I am not alone. My husband is with me. My kids are not oblivious to the buffaloes….er, dangers in the world. And we have God on our side.

Fear is a feeling, and feelings aren’t to be trusted. Feelings are a result of thoughts, and thoughts are so often wrong. That’s why God tells us to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5). That’s why He admonishes us to focus on the things that are true, right, noble, pure, lovely, excellent, and praise worthy. (Philippians 4:8) We cannot control our feelings, but we can control what causes them, our thoughts.

Finding Amanda cover-high resolutionWhen we’re awake, anyway.

What’s your strategy for dealing with fear? 

Had any weird dreams you’d like to share?

Robin Patchen lives in Edmond, Oklahoma, with her husband and three teenagers. Her third book, Finding Amanda, released in April, and its prequel, Chasing Amanda, released in July. When Robin isn’t writing or caring for her family, she works as a freelance editor at Robin’s Red Pen, where she specializes in Christian fiction. Read excerpts and find out more at her website, robinpatchen.com.

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9 responses to “Fear and Pink Buffaloes

  1. Pegg Thomas

    November 4, 2015 at 7:13 am

    My hubby has strange dreams like this. Even stranger. But I very rarely remember a dream, almost never. Not sure what that says about me!

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    • Robin Patchen

      November 4, 2015 at 7:56 am

      I only remember them when I wake up in the middle of them. So I usually only remember the bad ones. Rarely are my dreams this vivid when I wake up, but I swear my fingers were wet with buffalo slobber. 🙂

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  2. Linda W. Yezak

    November 4, 2015 at 8:25 am

    Loved this, Robin, though I have trouble sharing your fear of pink-tinged buffalo calves. I would’ve petted the thing and cooed about how cute he was. Until his mama came to his defense . . .

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    • Robin Patchen

      November 4, 2015 at 9:15 am

      Yeah, I don’t know why I was afraid of the buffaloes. Odd, right?

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  3. Jericha Kingston

    November 4, 2015 at 5:28 pm

    My heart goes out to you, Robin. I have nightmares frequently. Huh. Now that I typed that, I just realized how *few* nightmares I’ve had of late. Maybe I’m waking so often in the night, I don’t have a chance to fall into a deep sleep. I’ll take it…HATE nightmares!!

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    • Robin Patchen

      November 5, 2015 at 7:39 am

      They’re pretty rare for me. Or perhaps it’s more than I don’t usually remember them, because I’m a deep sleeper. When they wake me up like this one did, they’re bad.

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  4. Candice Sue Patterson

    November 5, 2015 at 12:20 pm

    Isn’t it funny how the mind works? I dream all the time. Some good, some bad. Some reoccurring. But never pink buffaloes. LOL
    Growing up, I’d have dreams that my teeth fell out. I’d watch them fall into the sink one by one. That always freaked me out.

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    • Robin Patchen

      November 5, 2015 at 7:16 pm

      That’s a weird dream, Candice. I have to say, I’ve never dreamed my teeth fell out.

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