As a writer and voracious reader, I view many things in acts, chapters, plots, and scenes. In 2010, two weeks after I gave birth to our third son, I received notice that my clerk position with the United States Postal Service was being eliminated due to cutbacks. I was devastated. I loved my job and the customers. I was supposed to retire from this position. I uprooted my family and transferred sixty miles so my position would be more secure. Why was this happening? Little did I know God was setting a plan into motion–to give me the desire of my heart.
With a teetering economy and the knowledge our financial status was about to take a nosedive, we agreed the best thing for our family was for me to become a stay-at-home mom. I essentially ended a chapter of my life and began another, one that was both exciting and a little scary. During feedings and eight months of sleepless nights with my newborn, I reacquainted with my first love. Books. And with that re-connection, a dream I’d longed for since early childhood returned–to write my own book. To see it alphabetized on a shelf next to my favorite authors. I no longer had a career holding me back, so why not pursue that dream?
Long story short, I studied everything I could about the craft of writing, joined American Christian Fiction Writers, talked to seasoned authors about their writing struggles and asked for advice, joined a critique group (the Quids are the best partners ever!)…and the list goes on. That chapter started a whole new book of my life I never saw coming. I stand in awe of God’s goodness.
Last week, that newborn started his first day of Kindergarten. He was ready to go–to learn, to make friends, to begin his own journey of life. I, however, was NOT ready. This new change that loomed over me all summer was now a reality. I’d have no more children at home. He was the last baby I’d ever nurture through toddlerhood.
A piece of my heart broke as I stood on the front porch and watched that big, yellow bus swallow him up. He waved to me from the bus window with a huge smile on his face, completely unaware that his mother would break down at least twenty times that day. My chapter of raising babies had ended, and it was time to turn the page to a new one.
What will this next chapter of my life bring? I have no idea. But I know God does, and I trust Him.
~Candice Sue Patterson is the author of Bright Copper Kettles and Silver White Winters. Her debut novel How to Charm a Beekeeper’s Heart releases in 2016. Candice writes Modern-Vintage Romance–where the past and present collide with faith. To learn more, visit her website www.candicesuepatterson.com.